An Official Public Apology

I’m one to say that you don’t need to apologize for taking time off from everything for you or for worrying about your health or your personal life, etc., but I want to.

I want to say that I’m sorry for not replying back to your email, for failing to go through with a commitment I made, for not returning your comment, for saying something stupid, for making a fool of myself, for making you feel like I only wanted one thing, for answering something wrongly, for not being cool enough, for making you feel like I’m milking my situation, for not being mentally stable.

I’m sorry for appearing lazy and not being able to move on and blogging about sad shit all the time and coming off as narcissistic and offending you and not moving on and not being able to control myself.

And I’m sorry you accepted that apology and/or that me apologizing has made things somewhat better between us.

Last year I did a lot of public humiliating to myself. I honestly feel like I’ve humiliated myself the most in the blogging world, aside from those who were publicly humiliated by themselves because they plagiarized x.

I told my dad everything. If I disappear, it’s likely because he put me in psych care. And, in the event that such happens, I’m really considering seeing if someone could make sure 6birds stays sane whilst I’m away. Because leaving a WP site static for so long seems to attract unwanted visitors and successful logins.

So, if such happens, at least you won’t worry about me. I’ll schedule some posts for random times for just-in-case purposes. Or maybe I won’t. Maybe just leaving this up if it does happen will/would be best.

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Sean’s gravatar

I hope you get the help you need, you’ve been through a lot and it sucks and is stuff no one should ever have to go through. Get better please.

Agent Q’s gravatar

Your health is important, so do what you must. If you take some time off for a long time, we will miss you. But we understand why you do. Take good care of yourself. ^^;

Stephanie’s gravatar

I’m glad that you had the courage to tell your dad everything. And I’m glad that it looks like he’s taking some sort of action – it shows that he’s acknowledging that you need help and that you’re not just lazy and “unable to move on” – at least to me. I think that whatever happens from now on, you’ll get better. 😀

Liz’s gravatar

@Stephanie, I actually don’t know what he’s doing. Dx I just said that I’m not sure if he’ll put me in psych care, because he doesn’t know my stance on it.

Cami’s gravatar

I hope all goes well for you.
I’ll send up a prayer for you. 🙂
And hey we all need help, we all need help.

Amy’s gravatar

I hope you feel better soon. It’s completely understandable to take time off, and you shouldn’t have to apologise for anything. Your health is the most important thing.

Keep fighting.
xx

Sherica’s gravatar

Maaan, I hope you feel better soon! Looks like you’ve been through a lot lately! 🙂

Things will be better 🙂

Steve Borgman’s gravatar

I am praying for you, that you will find healing and peace. And I do hope you can come back from time to time. I enjoy your story.

J.T.’s gravatar

I don’t know your complete situation but… I hope you will be okay! ;p ;p Good luck with everything…

Amy’s gravatar

Take care! Your health is more important! Don’t worry about the hiatus. I’m sure you’ll be back in no time, no need to apologise.

Georgia Kate’s gravatar

Your health is the most important thing my girl. <3 Take all the time you need; there's no need to apologise. Everyone here is behind you and will support you.

I'm so proud that you told your dad. Wherever this takes you, you can do it!

Get better soon. *hugs*

Take care. xx