Behind the picture
On my sidebar is a self-silhouette I took in 2008/2009 of Foxy Roo and I. It actually wasn’t easy choosing which picture to put on my sidebar, but I wanted to have something that showed a little bit about me.
A little history: When I moved in with my dad and Kimily (stepmother), Foxy instantly became spoiled by me as well as my dad (who had done most of the spoiling). She’s a Pomeranian, a toy breed, and even had her own “webshow” type thing I would [literally] plan out the episodes for. Upon finding the YouTube for it I stumbled across my old Livejournal. Oh, HOW EMBARRASSING. Apparently I DID blog some. MySpace days, you guys. Feel free to read it if you dare. I even mentioned my siblings in one post. I look back at the videos now, and I’m surprised they even got more than 5 views… It’s too bad I can’t have the accounts deleted. P: I also have my other account. I even made a mess during those days… Really wish I remembered the name of that font… And I even found my old Xanga account. P: Oh, the memories… I got off track. Dx …But this Stephanie’s dream college was/is “anywhere in California”… Hm. Does the shoe fit, Stephanie?
Isn’t it fun to remember sometimes? You find one thing, then another, then another – to find that it still exists, even though you totally forgot about it. I gained a lot of my friends back then by being myself; they loved my creativity. I lost all my fan signs, but I had a ton, and people made them for me “just because” – and it’s just a small thing that went so far back then, especially when I lived with my mom and lard.
But I’m going to assume you all didn’t know this about me because even my readers from last year/the year-ish before most likely didn’t know all of this about me. I’m a shadow because most people see my blogs when they visit. The sidebar image is merely a shadow that portrays the outline of who I was once and who I’d like to be again.
I like silhouettes; they’re one of my favorite photography techniques. I’ll take another one again sometime when Mother Nature positions the sun in my favor. I also had the edited version of my favorite picture of myself in high contrast (edited as well). I could have also started some commotion between the people that are completely against motorcycles and those that aren’t, but I didn’t even know Kim had taken said photo of me on the motorcycle with my dad’s Harley Davidson.1
See, I find silhouettes to be these mysterious things. You can’t see what person looks like, and things aren’t always what they seem – sometimes they turn out to be these totally different/unexpected objects. They’re mysterious; they add mystery. Too many bloggers add a face to their blogs, and when other bloggers don’t add their faces, they wonder why. I’ve added my face multiple times, just not constantly. Stephanie kind of blogs anonymously if you call blogging without an image of herself floating around somewhere on her blog (she’s pretty, no worries).
I took the pictures off of my main page and displayed merely one on my sidebar. I think it adds a bit of my personality; I really love it – it reminds me of a happier, almost-simpler time. I wouldn’t go back to that time if I had the choice, but during that moment it was okay.
…And I just used to take really good pictures of myself and be fairly confident enough to post them online back then. I felt like I was pretty, and I think that’s more important than a recent photograph of me not feeling like I’m pretty.
Now if anyone questions I’ll have a post to direct them to. However, for the moment I spent writing this, it was simply a blog topic I had in mind that I thought might interest some peoples. ^^
- I have a cool dad, okay? That’s just a fact. ↩