Blogging is different for me lately. I once used it as free therapy, meaning I could let everything in one place go and tell people about it, and defined it as my sanctuary, but it isn’t the same anymore. I have a therapist now, and I disclose a lot of information in there that I once did on my blog. I’m also writing a memoir (started last year), which is more personal that I have ever been anywhere online, and I’m trying to save things for that instead so there will be a difference between reading my blog and reading the memoir. I feel like publishing a story about my life in its rawest form will reach more people than my blog alone will.
Because of this, I’m finding I lack things to blog about lately. Or, I find something I want to share here, but then I realize it would do a lot better in the memoir instead and be something that was never discussed (at least not fully) on the blog. It would give background on everything I talk about here, but it would also give more history than I disclose here. I don’t always want feedback per story, but I dislike putting notes at the bottom stating so or simply closing comments on a post altogether.
Not having anything to really blog about is weird to me, though. I never realized how much I talked about here that could just be used for therapy talk instead, since I dislike repeating things/telling two different people (or things) the same story.
Sometimes I consider life updates, but then I realize that I either don’t have much to say or that they’re already over and done with completely. Sometimes I wait to post/write them because I want to have more to include in them, but then either nothing else happens, or it just feels redundant now.
I’m considering writing some tutorials (because of boredom), or maybe just talking #fangirl-wise, and I’m going to probably post more reviews. That way this blog doesn’t go dark completely, or appear abandoned.