I have not been returning comments much lately, but I think it will be easier when BEDA ends – for me, at least. I have been having some trouble functioning again emotionally, physically and mentally. It is a really difficult process to explain, and it has been quite difficult for me to explain it in a way that others can comprehend. I have been playing Wild Ones so I can get my anger out via a game, not really chatting with other players and simply enjoying the “peace” and quit whilst playing said game – all the while merely minding my own business.
I just wish I could forget about so much crap I don’t WANT to remember that my mind just keeps in my head. Slowly I have went from believing that “everything happens for a reason” to believing that “some things happen for a reason”, this being simply because I don’t know what POSITIVE reason could possibly cause said memories and whatnot to continuously stay in my head because of something I cannot control. And you know what? I honestly don’t think there’s anything wrong with that.
I have really changed a lot this year, and more so in the past few years. I think each year is different and that I always mature a little more, but this is the year that a lot of things have come out in the open. I can’t say I like it, but I can’t say I don’t like it. I neither know nor care how I feel about it.
I’m sick of Virgin Mobile USA thinking they’re being helpful but not, Avon not helping me when I need help and not understanding that I really need my emails – SOMETHING – to be replied to, and I’m sick of myself.
I just want to be happy. Why can’t I just be happy.
Take the title however the hell you want it, but don’t give me crap for using it and however which way you freaking perceive it.