I do not hate Christmas, nor do I disike it.
I am just not a huge fan of the holiday, but I do celebrate it.
My parents divorced when I was young, so my Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays were always chaotic. For that reason, I look forward to starting a new year in January. Since I have been able to choose which side of the family to spend it with, I have felt like I’m being pulled every way possible.
I sometimes feel bad. If I choose to spend Thanksgiving with one side, am I supposed to spend Christmas with another?
I used to tell myself to work hard and try to find a man to marry in my early twenties so I will have a reason to have my own traditions and do my own thing around the holidays. Even though Thanksgiving and Christmas are about spending time together with family, it has always been frustrating for me. I don’t even feel as excited about Christmas as a 10 year old child that does not believe in Santa anymore would.
The Christmas season tends to annoy me, too. The music, the decorations, the commercials – It’s like evryone is trying to drill into everyone else’s heads that the holidays are here, when it only makes me feel more stressed out than anyone around! 🙁
It’s me, though; it isn’t my family that makes me feel like this. Maybe. I don’t know.
I like Thanksgiving and Christmas, but I can honestly say that I am ready for the new year already. I feel stressed, my skin is oily, lights are everywhere, and my face is going to start breaking out soon.
I have my moods from time to time, though. Like right now: I have Christmas songs going on and on in my head very sparingly.