Allergies are literally the worst.
I did one of these two posts ago, but all I’ve accomplished lately is eating, binging Netflix like crazy, and complete two loads of laundry. I’m trying to stay hydrated, but it seems with every ounce of water I drink, my nose manages to fuel more snot together for me to blow into Kleenex.
(I’m aware that’s gross. Hi, I’m Liz. ?)
I have been binging on television. ?
I finally fell into Jane the Virgin and Versailles. Who knows what’ll happen next. I watched the pilot of Grey’s Anatomy, but feel too far ahead in their lives to rewatch their past; it feels so weird because they were babies then—interns, if you want to get accurate.
Style posts are coming!
I have been wanting to do style posts for a while. They’ll go up on Saturdays, though the frequency is undetermined, and range from my wardrobe to my tastes in interior and exterior design, as appropriate. I need to learn to write about style better, so this will be great practice—my blog is my sandbox for my writing ventures.
I also believe learning how and why someone dresses a particular way helps see into their soul more; ones style regards much of their being. Perhaps writing about my own on my blog will help me gain confidence to be who I am offline, despite criticism and unsolicited tips on how I could be “better”. The only mold I am interested in fitting into is my own. ?
I want to be healthier.
I had an epiphany the other day. I’d eaten a whole box of allergy-friendly snickerdoodle cookies. I felt shame only because I knew my mom and her husband would tell me how fat I was for doing so, but…then I was proud of myself because I’d eaten twelve cookies. They were delicious. I didn’t starve myself thereafter. Much of my family is dieting and obsessing over “unclean foods”, so their conversations and words often weave themselves into my head and hang on for the long haul ahead. But this time—for the first time ever—I didn’t care. Because me eating the whole box is progress. And, if you want to get technical, Enjoy Life Foods’ products are basically organic. The cookies have less sugar than a soda and nothing artificial.
I deserve to be proud of myself. I almost cried. ?
But it was then that I realised my problem with food grew worse when I was diagnosed with so many allergies. Everyone started telling me what foods were bad for me, but that I should consume even some of the severe ones on small doses—a method which only made me sicker and feel crappier. I realised my bigger problem with food is that I succumb and eat what I know will make me feel shitty because I feel like I deserve it.
So I am going to make sacrifices, like letting beloved domains go instead of renewing them and holding off on subscription boxes for now until I have found a pleasant routine with which I am content, so I can make room in my life for foods that make me feel at least OK and not guilty or bad or gross.
Because I deserve it.
I’ll share more on this later, but…yeah. This is my declaration. Here’s to feeling better!