From time to time I wonder to myself whether I’d miss something highly important if I deleted many of the emails at the back of my inbox or not (because if it isn’t obvious already, I’m a bit too lazy to take the time to organize them).
I keep procrastinating. I’m not doing it on purpose; it’s just happening. I can’t stay focused on packing for a long amount of time. I’ve spent the majority of my life packing and moving and being moved and being packed and blah, blah, blah, blah, BLAH. I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I struggle with procrastinating, though. It’s a hassle to get things done almost. And I know that when people are trying to help me by asking me if I want help and/or if I need help and/or if I need more ___ so I can get said whatever the heck done that it’s going to just take ten times longer because they asked about it, and I feel pressured, and I don’t like talking about the play before the game even takes place!1 It’s not that I’m ungrateful.2
Also, if I’ve snapped at you, then I’m really sorry. Half the things I say are coming out the wrong way, my emotions are all over the place, and this birth control is supposed to be a low-hormone thing, but YOU KNOW WHAT?! IT DOESN’T FEEL TOO LOW TO ME. Mood swings. ALL THE TIME. Oh, and you wanna know the part I find to be THE most hilarious? It (birth control in general) shouldn’t be prescribed to those who have a history of/suffer from depression and/or gastrointestinal problems. xD I laughed when I read that, because I suffer/have a history of said things. My GYN doctor was really nice and all, but I really hate that doctors don’t listen to me when I tell them I’ll end up being that 1 percent – as if they think I’m just over-exaggerating or something. 😀
*sings* I *sneezes* told you so!
…I hate that this thing makes me sneeze so much, ugh.
please excuse my pointless ranting, really
- This comes from a favorite quote of mine… “If you talk too much about what you’re going to do before you do it, you leave the game in the locker room.”, by Michael Caine. Personally I feel as though it fits my life a lot, even beyond the talking part. ↩
- Yeah, this ‘ungrateful’ thing has made me feel even worse, and self-conscious, and I can’t get it out of my head. D: ↩